Archive for February, 2010

464: Sunday Best

Sunday, February 28th, 2010

465: Shame Secondly, and I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but someone said it to me and I’ll say it to you. Get over yourself, Alpha Betty. No. One. Cares. –Lora LOL, I know. I learned a while back that what people say and do has 99% to do with them and [...]

465: Shame

Saturday, February 27th, 2010

Back when we were married, Fish and I used to have these things we liked to call Useless Days. They were days in which we did absolutely nothing truly useful, or we tried. If we did anything useful out of absolute necessity, we did it early in the day, and spent the rest of the [...]

466.5: Addendum

Friday, February 26th, 2010

I got my collage pages scanned – for those of you interested in seeing Con and Zel, here they are… (click the thumbnails for the full pic):

466: Boring

Friday, February 26th, 2010

All of this sudden peace and good feeling I’ve been having has left me without a lot of deep thoughts about pain and progress, and I find that I come here to this blog – 50 posts in today, can you believe it? – and look at the cursor on the screen and think, “I [...]

467: The Red (String) Bracelet

Thursday, February 25th, 2010

Back on the Judgment post, Robena mentioned The Red String, which is a custom associated now with the Kaballah, but supposedly comes from ancient times, in reference to Rachel. As the story goes – although I’m sure I’m screwing it up, this is after ten minutes of internet research, as I don’t have a Bible [...]

468: Quiet

Wednesday, February 24th, 2010

There’s this sudden absence of worry inside, and I find it interesting, because I hadn’t noticed how worried I’ve been until just right now. Well, of course I’d be worried. I’ve uprooted my kids. I’ve left my husband. I have a job, but it doesn’t have benefits and it doesn’t pay with anything approaching regularity. [...]

469: The Change

Tuesday, February 23rd, 2010

A lot of what I’m trying to do here is figure out where my thinking has been wrong, and change that. I believe that many of my failures come from the fact that my thinking about particular things – that you stay married, no matter what, unless he beats you, beats the kids, or abuses [...]

470: The Adequate Seven

Monday, February 22nd, 2010

Today, Jenny and I are starting on the South Beach diet, mostly for the following reasons: 1. Because we have to do something. We were bad apart, but together, we are hideous. We have encouraged each other to eat every refined sugar/processed carb out there. And we have ballooned. Well, me more than Jenny, but [...]

471: Sunday Best

Sunday, February 21st, 2010

477: The Plan I love that “Who’s with me?” She said, “I need to do this and I can’t do it unless you do it, too.” It’s hell being Lucy March’s best friend, but I’m in. –Jenny LOL. I did say that to Jenny when I decided to do South Beach. Come back tomorrow for [...]

472: Judgment

Saturday, February 20th, 2010

(A warning: Today’s is a particularly unflattering post, but there is one value I hold to on this blog, and it is honesty. Every stone I overturn, I’m going to show you what’s underneath, even when it’s yucky. So… prepare yourselves.) I feel very passionately about judgment; I hate it. As long as a person [...]